I’m back here sitting in my room, under the air con and typing this message. This is on the MX keyboard which I brought back from work. The MX mechanical is really quite something. I feel like I like typing emails because of that keyboard. This MX mini is no slouch either. Meh. I know. I can’t decide.
Anyway, the mood sitting here in the room is drastically different from sitting in the hall working. It seems like in this room, I feel like it’s really work environment. I am suddenly more focused I guess. Perhaps it’s the chair. Perhaps it’s the environment.
So it reminds me of the post I saw on IG. If a flower is not blooming, do you blame the flower or do you look at it’s surroundings. The soil. The water. The sun. So true. I posted a long pretty long message on Linkedin yesterday stating my views on management behaviour. It is triggered by that loud mouthed Trading head who complained to bc that jx is sleeping and is playing cartoons on his machine. And the worst is, he mentioned it in front of the defacto IT gossiper J, who in turn told me that T complained in front of everyone. I was instantly triggered by this comment. What in the world is his business gossiping behind someone’s back, and worse, he is in a senior position? I always believe that your behaviour says more about you than what you say about the other party. So there.
Actually, I have no qualms on a developer guy who needs to take a short nap or need to distract himself a little. That is normal. I do it all the time. We work in spurts. People don’t understand that. But when we are in the zone, we ARE in the zone. But when we are not, we just like to distract ourselves a bit. The mental work is exhausting. People don’t understand that. Moreover J, she is just not there, which is why we all climbed much faster than her.
So anyway, I was thinking back why I was so triggered, maybe because this happened to me when I was back on my first job, where these accusations were thrown at me and it even spread to the guy who recommended me to the job. And these accusations were totally unfair. Making me stay so late. Making me having a nervous breakdown. No one knows what the heck was happening. And I was constantly fixing things and I didn’t have help and everyone is writing really boring stuff.
I know how it feels. So now, I am going to stand up for people who are attacking developers for no apparent reason other than to gossip.
If they can just spend more time on their own shit, perhaps we would have be making more money.
On another topic, d have started work on the jap restaurant. It is making him happier. Can see that on his body posture and also his mannerism. It is such a good move I think. I hope it will last though. Let’s see tonight when he comes back as today is a full shift and it is not near by house.
I guess the double m restaurant, although the food is good, they really try to stretch people as much as possible and to reduce payroll costs as much as possible in order to gain as much net profit as possible to answer to shareholders. But the shareholders forget these are people who are working to generate the revenue. Even if they are machines, they cannot sustain the high load over a long period of time. Things just break. It’s just common sense. Perhaps it’s another bunch of people who just see staff as a statistic. Perhaps they subscribe to the let’s track staff attrition rate shit.
I’m feeling quite tired today. Not really feeling that well. Took a panadol at work because the morning conversation just gave me a headache. Was shivering last night also, air con too cold? I just realized I set it to 26 degrees. Wow. And it was still cold.
I can’t wait to go bowling this friday. I was experimenting various things I can do last week and I can’t wait to go try it again at the lanes this Friday under supervisor and coaching, so I can refine the technique and maybe even seal the feeling into muscle memmory.
Today d told me someting very perculiar. he mentioned that dor asked him is it I stopped gym. I was quite taken aback by that question. It seems like she had this impression I was bulkier previously and I am smaller now. Yes I am certainly smaller now. Probably because of the glycogen intake. It may not be muscle loss. It’s probably the water content. It will get smaller due to the creatine intake and the vasodilation.
Whatever the case may be, yeah I am going to take it back up again. Just let me get through these couple of months which I need to pay for stuff and also I need to get new bowling equipment.
I’m feeling quite sleepy actually. I am trying my best to wait for him to come back, at least as a sign of respect for the work he is putting in. I hope I can make it. I’m going to start on the fastapi course now.